Eventful Days, Backwards Nights
It's been a few days since I last blogged... it's also been a sorted few days. Saturday night was just what I needed, fun, crazy, drunken, just a good time! Spent the night at a house on rez, partying with a house full of people from far away places. The house was predominantly pakistani, which was awesome, because they taught us how to dance and we jammed to their traditional party songs! Also.. I remet a friend, in a new way.. Let's just say, it was a fun night by all, and ended with a sweet goodbye.
Then came sunday, fully hungover.. full of mishaps because of the change in time, due to the inevitable autumnal equinox (thank you environmental science). I woke up for a third time halfway through my day, feeling mighty ill and really not wanting to go downtown to the library to study. So I ended up going downtown still, and hanging out with a friend, who feels like my older brother. It was a fun day, lol, we went to his sisters home and I met his entire, very polish family! The only english they spoke was when they spoke to me. I was immersed in culture this weekend, and fully enjoyed my time with the nutty aunt, sweet grandmother, nice mother, typical foreign uncle and of course the sister and the fiance. After an evening of inquisitive, watching eyes and having amazing red wine go to your head, a good time was had by all!! Then my friend and I took the long journey back to Scarberia. Time on the train, a walk through a sketchy area, and a busride home with a chatty bus driver. It ended up to be a good day, when it started out so very groggily.
Yesterday, I woke up feeling like I had been run over by 5 bulldozers... the day started out badly, and got worse with it's progressions. That evening, when I should have been studying, instead I went downtown again, with a group of fun intelligents, lol, of course immature. We trekked down to a talk at the Fac.of Music on conflict in the middle east. Of course after careful deliberation, Kate and I decided that we were ready to go, with excellent outfits, obviously! So we went and watched some excellent speakers being had by some crazy extremists! What an interesting couple of hours. Then the subway ride home, so typical of a university student's life, was full of discussion, immaturity, and general subway fun.
Its been a great end to a weekend which didn't really start out well. But today I can't help feeling alone and empty again.. so much emotional instability at the moment. I can't let it get to me, but it does. I'm filled with confusion again.. with conflicting views.. needing to let go. Can't concentrate, can't sleep really.. oh the dramas! lol, well it'll get better. Plus I had some fun parts of today, getting to know my cuz (haha), more bonding with the roomies, and feeling so much closer to all of them! Thanks to my roomies, for being there so much, over the past few weeks.. and for knowing that they'll be there whenever they're needed.
I think I need to get some much desired sleep, and perhaps attempt to study for anthropology, something that has been difficult considering the noise of my emotions that keep turning over in my head. Never dread tomorrow, because you never know when it won't be there anymore to dread.
