Night of Unfulfilled Dreams
What a crazy crazy week it's been. Full of drama, excitement, bonding and hellish exams. For roomies it's been a fab week, full of creative ideas to make friends feel better, making each other cope with our ongoing dramas. I don't think I could've gotten through it without them. I really appreciate that even though none of us wanted to be in the situation we live in, we've made it work so well. I was thinking today, as I picked up my sister from the train station and was talking to an old ex-friend... that this weekend was the first time I came home and wished that I hadn't left school.
When I left for home yesterday, I thought it'd be a really good thing, coming home for grad, seeing all my school friends with all their new lives, and catching up with the people I miss. Instead I realized why I needed to leave home so badly. I wish I was back at rez and that I didn't come home for grad. Even though I'm somewhat richer (thanks to the school and friends), I am feeling a little bit upset.. Fights with parents, not being able to understand each other, not being abkle to study and realizing that something I want so bad.. I may never be able to have.
There's so much stress going on in life right now. Evil exams, only one more for this week!! Personal crap, and school are just a little much. In my head, I thought that everything was fine.. but really, it was just a facade. I took the most brutal test ever on thursday.. I went into the exam, exhausted.. first mistake. But I thought I knew what I was doing. It was probably the first exam where I actually drew a blank on some questions..
Will there ever be a time when it will all work out.
Well tonight was a night full of misconceptions, and very disappointing events. Tomorrow's a new day.. I think I'm going to go to bed, eagerly awaiting the events of tomorrow. I just hope there will be less pain.. for everyone.
What a crazy crazy week it's been. Full of drama, excitement, bonding and hellish exams. For roomies it's been a fab week, full of creative ideas to make friends feel better, making each other cope with our ongoing dramas. I don't think I could've gotten through it without them. I really appreciate that even though none of us wanted to be in the situation we live in, we've made it work so well. I was thinking today, as I picked up my sister from the train station and was talking to an old ex-friend... that this weekend was the first time I came home and wished that I hadn't left school.
When I left for home yesterday, I thought it'd be a really good thing, coming home for grad, seeing all my school friends with all their new lives, and catching up with the people I miss. Instead I realized why I needed to leave home so badly. I wish I was back at rez and that I didn't come home for grad. Even though I'm somewhat richer (thanks to the school and friends), I am feeling a little bit upset.. Fights with parents, not being able to understand each other, not being abkle to study and realizing that something I want so bad.. I may never be able to have.
There's so much stress going on in life right now. Evil exams, only one more for this week!! Personal crap, and school are just a little much. In my head, I thought that everything was fine.. but really, it was just a facade. I took the most brutal test ever on thursday.. I went into the exam, exhausted.. first mistake. But I thought I knew what I was doing. It was probably the first exam where I actually drew a blank on some questions..
Will there ever be a time when it will all work out.
Well tonight was a night full of misconceptions, and very disappointing events. Tomorrow's a new day.. I think I'm going to go to bed, eagerly awaiting the events of tomorrow. I just hope there will be less pain.. for everyone.
posted by Melanie G at
12:08 a.m.
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