Today is all we have.. Because "Today is Tomorrow"

Life really does change in the blink of an eye sometimes. Looking back over the past four months "summer" as some would call it.. I feel as if all the bad things that happened aren't really that important. All I can think about is how ready I am to move on to the next chapter of my life. I can barely remember half of the stuff I did earlier on in the summer, partying.. etc. I'd rather not remember some of it. It's been a challenge not to let my environment get me down.. but somehow I managed. Now the memories that pop into my head are my great job, my montreal trips, last week's trip to the East Coast.

I just finished Tom Robbins 'Fierce Invalids Home From Hot Climates', great book.. I can't believe it took me so long to read. But it provoked many a discussion for my journal! I love finishing books.. there's something so accomplishing about it, perfect timing too. I never get to do enough reading for the sake of reading while I'm at school.

I have so many goals already for the school year, I know it's going to be packed full! I'm looking forward to it, but not at the same time.. it's not going to be easy, especially because money will be really tight, and I have to work my butt off at school. But nothing in life is supposed to be easy right? All I need is support.. and I need to try not to be too stubborn to ask for help when I need it. For now, I'll continue being inspired by josh groban, haha, and the new book I'm reading, really it's an oldie.. but a goodie!

Can't believe the end of the "summer" is here.. I'm sad to leave my job, it's been great! Maybe I can go back next summer. 5 days til Toronto. OC Party September 16th anyone??? I don't have a t.v. but i'm sure we can find one!! Wow, I'm a nerd. Gotta love it though. Living life to the fullest everyday, that's my new mantra!! Join me in repeating Tom Robbins' words, Today is Tomorrow!!!

So Much To Smile About

Sometimes attitude means everything.. and sometimes life just turns out great in the most unexpected ways. 2 weeks ago, even a few days a go, I was starting to feel sorry for myself again... then I decided I was sick of it. Sick of dealing with disappointment. Sometimes if we act like everything is against us.. then the world does react in that way.

Today I smiled because I got a surprise (wink wink)package from Montreal!! It's so nice to open up mail that has thought put into it.. bills are just so impersonal. In it was a cd, and some very yummy deli treats.. mmm.. all the chocolate is gone by the way, I felt a binge was deserved. So I devoted my evening to listening to the cd.. loved it!! It was the type of music that I probably wouldn't think to buy for myself... but I would've stolen it from my roomie as soon as I heard it.

I'm soo excited about Montreal next weekend. I need to be in a city, filled with life, and hanging with my roomies, whom I miss so much! Not that things aren't looking up here.. but I need a vacation.

The up parts to my weekend made it really special!! The down parts, I can barely remember.. the last blog I wrote, I was drunk.. and upset, and now realize was being way too sensitive about a stupid situation. It all worked out. On Sunday night, I attended a late birthday party that my friend threw for me, and 2 of my other friends. We all have b-days in a week's time. This guy that I met last weekend.. and hit it off with came to the party and while he probably felt awkward part of the night, we still had a good time. Last night we talked for quite awhile.. turns out we have lots in common.. and I'm just going with the flow.. so who knows what's going to happen next.

I got to take care of my drunken sister on sunday night, lol. The roles were reversed.. usually people take care of me, not me taking care of people.. it was hilarious, and I realized that I shouldn't get ridiculously drunk.. ever.. It's kind of pathetic.. not that my sis is pathetic that's not what I mean.. but she was a totally differnet person, and I like the sober her better. Speaking of which, we found a great.. but tiny apartment in T.O. and I can't wait to move in.

I went rollerblading tonight with a friend. Can you believe that this was my first time out all summer.. I used to live on my blades. Well, I'm going out again tomorrow.. and i'm going to try and make it a daily thing. I love it.. I love the outdoors.. wow! I just love smiling :D.

Between Enemy Lines

Just a recap of the last couple of weeks. Last weekend was the birthday that never ended.. I thought it was great, but so many negative complications have been attached to it.

Friday Night- Day #1- Went to Le Skratch in Oshawa had a fantastic time.. hanging with some guys that go to school, and/or work with my friend Sarah. Hit it off with this guy.. ended up making out.. the result?? I had a good night, Sarah was pissed off.. which is a long, long story. Let's just say, Sarah thinks about Sarah, and no one else deserves what Sarah deserves.

Saturday Night- Day #2- Stayed in Cobourg, Saniye came to visit.. had a fun time with Saniye.. felt overshadowed by someone else's 19th birthday, but it was ok, because my other friends.. one's that I don't hang out with all the time.. made me feel special. Plus the boa probably helped.

Sunday- Family Day- Good B-day.

Last week, shitty. Didn't talk to my friends, cuz Sarah was pissed at me.. for NO reason. Then talked with some old friends... I"M SO SICK OF THIS COBOURG BULL SHIT.

Tonight... Bottom Line.. Sarah decided, the best way to get back at me for that guy I hooked up with last weekend.. To go after a guy I've liked for over 3 months.. and act like it was totally fine.. so of course, my reaction, cuz I was slightly drunk.. go after a guy that she recently hooked up with... who likes me too. I"M SOO SICK OF THE GAMES. Save me save me from all this small town crap.

Nobody understands how happy I am to be moving into my own place in T.O... counting down the days. GAHHHHHH!!!! I need to escape to Montreal.. so soon, I can almost feel it.