A Plethora of Emotions...

Why does every decision that I make lately have to be so difficult? I've been contemplating the past year and realizing that in the past few months I've failed at so many things.. I feel as if I've changed a lot in a really short time. I have a really big decision to make right now, and I'm having a hard time trying to figure out the outcome. I found out today that I got accepted into a program that would send me to Thailand for a year. I'd leave in September.. it's an amazing opportunity but I really don't know if I'm going to be able to pull it off.. It'll be expensive, it'll make me lose a year of university.. and many more cons.. the cons are way outweighing the positives at this point.. I just want someone to make the decision for me.. What should be the best news ever, is now making more upset and confused then I was before I found out.. I wish I hadn't found out.. lol, I set myself up for failing and I had become used to that concept.. What the hell, why is everything so hard to decide.. why can't I just impulsively say yes, and not care about the costs.. I think it comes down to me deciding what I really want right now.. and I am further away from that knowledge than ever before...