It's amazing how when something sad happens in your life everything seems to be amplified and you notice pain all around you. I've come to discover that no matter how many upsetting things happen in your life.. if you're somehow unable to cope with even little problems because of a bigger problem it becomes really hard to deal with even everyday things. I've had a really hard day.. and for once.. all I want is to spill my feelings in hopes of somehow feeling better. It's been a hard summer, hard year, and it's just getting more difficult. My grandma died today.. and my dog got put down. I had a hard day at work.. got berated by my stupid manager and realized how much I hate it here... I'm feeling sorry for myself.. and I don't like it. But somehow.. my problems seem like the most important things in the world right now.. this sucks. I miss my roomates.. I need a roomie sleepover right about now to get my mind off things.