My Dreams Aren't as Empty as My Conscience Seems to Be

It's been one of those weeks, that even as it ends, it just keeps on getting longer and longer. I've been through so much emotional turmoil.. stress... If exams weren't enough to make me stressed, my life has been dredging up enough surprises to make me feel like shit. As I sit here, procrastinating the exam I have in the morning, and listening to music, I feel at a loss.. and I can't wait until next thursday when at least I don't have to worry about school.

I've been listening to a song all night by Evanescence, and it just fit my mood:

"My Immortal"

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating mind
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

I'm counting down the days til I can be free of school's mental anguish!! It's almost time for Roomie Christmas!! Yay, I can't wait.. Here I go.. ready to fail or pass, just ready to be done at least one more exam...