For one brief moment.

Tonight for one fleeting second, I remembered what it was like to be happy.. to be excited about starting something new.. now i'm back to feeling so down.. I'm about ready to give up.. I can't even excel in something that I've loved so much for so long.. something that completes me, and I can't even be a part of it. This year is starting out the exact same way it ended.. totally confused and craptacular. This sucks.. I thought leaving home might make me forget some of the problems there, but now there are things that I didn't have to worry about at home that are coming back.. that were lurking waiting for me to come back to them.. I'm sick of everything being so shitty, so hard, so frustrating. I think it's time for a new me.... but what will it be..?